Hello!
My name is Lydia, and I am a 43-year-old transgender female, MTF. I weigh 315 lbs and I am only 5’9″. I have been classified as morbidly obese to the point it will cause me physical ailments. I have been suffering from body dysphoria pretty much my entire life, and ever since I started on HRT, the dysphoria has grown to dangerous levels.
Due to my dysphoria (which includes not just gender dysphoria, but my own body image as a whole), I have attempted multiple times to commit suicide. Yes, it is that severe. The mere sight of my body causes such revulsion in me that I simply cannot handle it.
I have tried dieting (which never works), exercise, and even gone on Zepbound for my weight. Not a single thing has happened. If anything, I’ve gained weight, not lost it. This is a common side effect of HRT but especially at my age, it’s almost unmanageable.
I’m truly at the end of my rope here. This is why I’m trying to gather money. This fundraiser is for one thing and one thing only: weight loss surgery. Whether it be laser fat removal or traditional liposuction, along with body sculpting to make my breasts and tush more pronounced and feminine.
I honestly do not know how much longer I can do this anymore. The mental pain I go through, along with the negative physical ailments my weight causes me, has pushed me to the edge to end my life more than once. I go to a therapist multiple times a month but it’s not helping me cope with my body image.
I know most of my friends are just as poor, if not more so, than me, but anything helps. I need to raise 50k for my surgeries, because of course, insurance will not cover it. Even if I only get a couple hundred, that would at least cover some of the time off work I would have to take to heal.
Please… Anything helps. I don’t know how much longer I can live like this.
